Mother received a question one day that she recorded. I think many of us have wondered at one time or another how the heck is this spot is going to sink in?
Question: I've repeated "I’m not wrong, I'm average over and over. Is there anything in Dr. Low's literature that says anything about the idea-- I’m wrong being intuitive?
Treasure: Dr. Low does talk about "body fear". Repeating I am not wrong, I'm average" is o.k.-- it is knowledge, but you may not be seeing it at a deeper level. An example may help us to see another side to this.
One time I made a presentation in Detroit with Father Dowling (an old friend of Recovery and Dr. Low) from St. Louis, MO. The audience was made up of newspaper editors from all over the country. Driving back to Brighton from Detroit I was working myself up. "I talked too long. I should have said this! They must think I am really dumb." Of course, I was feeling very wrong... upset stomach, general tenseness, shaky. I kept saying, "I'm not wrong, I'm average."
All of a sudden I thought, "you think you are RIGHT that you're wrong. It is natural and average to review a performance, but you have jumped to a conclusion. That is still the vanity of knowing better. Real spotting would be to know that you don’t know.
With this I began to relax and each time I would tend to go back to my processing, I spotted again that I had no way of knowing what the audience was thinking. And, I endorsed myself for even making the presentation. I had faced my fears of speaking in front of any audience, let alone such an important one as this was.
Before Recovery I would not have had the techniques to really spot... that is, recognize what was happening inside of me. The processing of anything I did would go on for days. My symptoms were bizarre thoughts, panic attacks, fears of closed places and open spaces, etc., etc.
